bruised ego

didnt even want it, but my ego’s so bruised,

one day you confess praise, and now you end it so i lose.

i shoulda beat you to it, i shoulda won.

the only thing i’ll miss was this forbidden fun.

so dangerous and vigorating, but i wont have this for a while

the dirty words you said even made me smile.

but you cant confess one thing one day and end it the next, i knew it was fake, i thought i could be the best.

so what you said you didnt really mean,

what you claimed we do is now only in my dreams,

i consider myself lucky, really i do.

because you could have taken something that in the end i wouldnt want you to.

now i know you wanted to devirginize me and run, your idea of fun

but you didnt take it, you didnt come close

so why do i still feel like i lost?  because you initiated it first

and now my bruised ego is shadily feeling the worst